Daily Theosophy

If Peter would have really understood what Jesus meant, he would have seen that it not different from what Buddha said – but regrettably he never took the trouble to study other scriptures than the Bible and the commentaries on it of scholars and professors.

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(peter dies and lives)

More and more he developed the habit of speaking evil about others’ ideas, and his own mind became more and more caught in these ideas. Even though always there seemed to be a silent voice somewhere to remind him of what he knew when he was eleven – but he did not listen despite the pain in his heart, and his brain-mind convictions became stronger and stronger. He also started to eat more and was fond of sweets. His stomach reached an impressive proportion when he grew older. Just a short time after his retirement he got a heart attack and died. Only then, when he died, he saw clearly all the events of his life passing by like a movie, and also remembered the event when he was eleven with the minister and the stories about Krishna he had read. And he understood that this had been the moment where he had made the biggest mistake of his life. He should have followed is heart, in stead his fear for the minister and his parents and the church and other people. Then he lost consciousness for some time.

He continued to go to church and talked to people about “God,” but the people did not seem to hear him anymore (because he was dead) and ignored him completely, whereas before they had adored every word he said. Also Jesus was not there, God was also not there – at least he did not see or hear or feel them. Instead he went on preaching and preaching and preaching, becoming more desperate and angry, throwing around the chairs and benches in the church that now only existed in his imagination. The real church on Earth burned down six years after his death, and was not rebuilt because there had been almost no more congregation by that time. But Peter didn’t know about that because he was caught in his own illusions. He did not realize that he was dead, but he was; and in any case he was not at all in heaven. He even became angry with Jesus, and shouted to him when he appeared in his fantasy. As Peter had only learned about eternal hell and heaven, and had firmly denied that any creature would ever been born again on Earth (except if and when God decided), he saw no hope and no future. Being caught in his own emotions of anger and fanaticism he lost his mind completely and day and night for some 30 years he went on preaching and shouting, though what he ‘said’ had long since stopped to make any sense at all. Others who saw him there saw a kind of a meager corps with an enormous shouting mouth above its weird and angry and fear-filled empty eyes. All through the years some compassionate beings had tried to talk to him and tell him that he was dead and should leave his fanaticism and look to the future, but he could and would not hear them. Until, finally, by lack of energy, his self-created hell became weaker and softer and softer and slowly he lost all consciousness of it.

Nothing in Nature, not even a single thought or feeling goes ever completely lost, and these thoughts and feelings perform their task when the right time has come, and when they can appear. So now he awoke again and he was completely oblivious of his terrible 30 (or more) years. In stead he had a beautiful dream in which Krishna and many other Great Teachers came to him and taught him the things of his heart. They could not teach him more than he could understand of course, but at least he now knew that compassion and compassionate teachers are everywhere, that good people who had lived on Earth were still living, and he dreamed that Jesus and Krishna were friends, playing together and only thinking about how they could do the best for poor stupid and misguided humankind. They both knew perfectly well that the belonged to the same brotherhood and were serving the same purpose: but each in his way. Krishna a little over 5000 years ago in India, and Jesus over 2000 ago in Palestine. Peter now saw the real good things of both (as far as his own mind could understand of course) and loved them both, and he saw many other Great Teachers of many other countries and times there also, all united in Heart, but divided in task. One time he was invited for a dance party by Jesus and Krishna. He saw that Mohammad was also there. They were all exceedingly happy. Jesus praised Mohammad for his self-sacrifice in being the speaker for Allah, and his prevailing peaceful and brotherly attitude during the bitter enmity during his life, and the way he had lived the life in God. Krishna pointed out how important it had been to constantly repeat that Allah was all-merciful and oft-forgiving. The people had only partly understood – but evolution goes slow. In his own life, Krishna had had to advice war, because it was unavoidable at that time of transition – but he himself hadn’t liked it. They started dancing, while Krishna played his heavenly flute, attracting every soul in the universe into the direction of his divine self – everyone’s divine self. Mohammad praised Jesus for his pioneering work in teaching forgiveness, and the full acceptance of the dire consequences brought to him by the people of his time. At the same time Mohammad started dancing high speed in circles on his toe, around his own axis. He looked like the Earth itself. One hand he rose up, and in his speedy turning around it took the shape of a vortex. It formed his own North Pole as it where, and invited spiritual forces along his upraise arm to spiral down, corkscrew wise, and send them to his body, or the surface of the earth, and finally left them off though his other hand, pointing downwards. That is how all souls and cultures and God’s teachings coming from the North move over the earth, coming from the divine, and leaving it down below to recycle or return to the sun” he said. “Without this dual force, no movement of life would be possible.” Jesus was dancing around slowly, with his hands raised, blessing all men and women, young and old, and all other creatures too. In this way all those living on earth felt a continuous inspiration to live according to truth and thus take the road of light. There were many other holy teachers, but these Peter saw only faintly, on the background of his consciousness, because he had never paid attention to them. Buddha was, as always, sitting in his lotus posture, smiling, approving, but not personally involved. The whole event was quite swinging and happy. Still everyone knew, and, out of love, wished, to return to humanity on Earth, sooner or later, to do the work that was their covenant for ages to come. Buddha handed out a glass of amrita to everyone, and as soon as they had taken a sip Peter and all the holy men and women instantly knew that they were God, and immortal, that, in their essence they were One God or Allah or Brahman, working for the same purpose of helping life on our blue planet (and elsewhere).

This lasted over 600 years. Then, when all his mental energy which created all these dreams were almost exhausted, he went back to Earth, and was born in a liberal environment where the people had a religion not yet known in our time. He led a quiet live and dedicated most of his time to deep study of science, philosophy and religion, trying to find what they had in common, and what of it was true in all times. Normally he dared to talk about it to others but little, because he was afraid that he would misguide others when he had not completely worked out his thoughts. He also noticed that almost everyone opposed him and would attack him with dogmatic arguments. For some unknown reason he attracted always friends with dogmatic or rigid views who opposed him fiercely. Only then he became very fierce and eloquent. He tried to tell them not to be dogmatic. “Dogma and authority are the greatest evil in the world, he would repeatedly say. I feel that deep within.” Some listened and tried to change, others not. As to most other things he was quite indifferent, and spoke little. Moreover his health was weak, and his face bleak, and often he had not enough energy and had to stay home from his work. In his profession he was a government official, quiet, and not too heavy and apart from his colleagues and his family few people took notice of him. Sometimes he felt his mind was confused, and he entered, for some time, into severe depression. But everyone noticed a wisdom in him, a wisdom of experience, and people who knew him well, knew that deep within he was a man of great courage. One lady who worked at the same office for many years, once remarked: “There is a rare flame in him, a small flame, but once it will blaze up into a huge fire.” That was right. “Her intuition was telling her that,” she said – and it was a correct intuition. But she didn’t know that this had to wait till a future life. And it is beyond the reach of our present story. This life was for reaching balance by rest and restoring harmony.

Peter always defended his points against all ridicule, and would always defend minorities or the weak. He married at 24, and had a good marriage with a caring women – though also somewhat inflexible in her rather rigid opinions. They had two children, two boys. It was a good family. They really cared for their father when he was not feeling well, and talked with much with him about their inner problems – which he understood very well. But because he was so anti-dogmatic, he always presented him possible solutions, but never clear-cut final solutions, and sometimes they accused him of ‘not knowing it himself,’ or ‘giving them no straw to hold on.’ Both sons later choose the side of their mother, and became rigid believers in God. That was Peters Karma. All these souls he had met before.

Most of his free hours and after his retirement he studied deep subjects. By doing so, even in silence, he helped many more human minds than as a preacher in his former life, and he misguided no one. It was really sad that his wife and children never really understood him.

For Adi it was difficult to accept all the horrors that took place in most of this dream – and he was fully aware that the dream was completely real for the figures in his dream. For Peter himself all this was reality, and he didn’t know that he was a dream. And within his ‘reality’ Peter had again created his own illusions, which for him again became ‘realities.’ It is not easy to learn to handle a mind. Still Adi realized that, because everything in this universe came from him, also Peter’s misery came from him. Adi himself has sown the seed for that misery, because it had been Peter’s free mind who had chosen for the covenant for that life – his best and a most crucial choice in many of Peter’s lifetimes – and this was because Adi had sown the seed of longing for progress in each and every being. – The curiosity of his heart had caused that.

We’ll now see a few more events in Adi’s dream, which are of crucial importance for the future. It seems as if Adi has to understand every terror that is possible in the universe, and every joy too.

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(dura diana)

Dura Diana

She was thirteen,